Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I really just have to write this.
我不得不写下来下面的东东了
Wow. Just wow. While I have physics and a paper to write, I really need to get
this out.
哦， 现在，当我还有精力和纸来写的时候，我真的需要把所有东西写出来
Grace Wang. She's really something.
王1000，她还真是个人物。
She's quite useful to the media. Both sides are having a field day. The chines
e TV are branding her as this terrible traitor while western media is holding
her up as the lone voice of reason. They both are neglecting the truth, what G
race really is, beyond the 9 minute Youtube video and glorious interviews.
她对媒体非常有用，双方都在大做文章。中国电视媒体已把她打上无耻汉奸的烙印，但西
方媒体却把她这秆旗当作事情的唯一真相而高高举着。双方都忽略了真相，那就是，在9分
钟长的Youtube录象中及光彩照人的采访背后，真正的王1000是什么样的？
When I first met her at a dinner, she immediately spilled her life story. I th
ought, maybe she was being a slightly socially incompetent fob and trying to m
ake friends. I listened. What a good story it was.
当我第一次在一次晚餐中和她见面时，她立刻滔滔不绝的向我倾诉她的故事。我想，也许
是因为她是个无足轻重又缺乏社交经验的孩子所以想着交朋友。我听着她讲，那真是个不
错的故事。
She told of how she was involved in a political group with some top lawyers in
China. They were trying to get the truth out of the Tiananmen square incident
. They wrote articles and blogs together on the subject. Then one day, one of
her friends involved in the group disappeared. They called her, went to her ho
use, tried everything, but she was no where to be found. Then Grace and her pa
rents start freaking out. Grace's dad, at the time the ex mayor of Qingdao, af
raid of Grace facing a similar fate, went to her files in the city government
and threw them out. She got a new name, and quickly moved to South Korea. At t
he time, Grace told us that she already dropped out of her high school in Qing
dao because she was unsatisfied by the best high school in Shandong province.
She moved to Korea, and there she learned English by watching American films.
While she was there, she also slept around with a lot of guys. Then she applie
d to Harvard and got rejected. The next year, she applies again, to Harvard,
Princeton, Yale, and Duke. She gets accepted to all but Harvard.
She chose to come to Duke because she got the Robertson. She then turns down
the Robertson because she didn't want the restrictions set by the program.
她告诉我她是如何参与一个由中国顶级律师组成的政治团体的。他们想将TAM(天.安.门)事
件的真相披露出来。还就那个问题写文章和博客。然后有一天，她的一个朋友，那个政治
团体中的一员消失了。其他人打电话给她，后来去了她房子找，所有的方法都试了，但还
是找不到她。然后王和她的父母吓坏了。王的老爸，那时是青岛的前市长，怕王也面临同
样的命运，去政府部门找到王的材料把之销毁。然后王用了新的名字，然后很快搬到韩国
。当时，王告诉我们她已经辍学，因为对山东最好的高中感到不屑。她搬到韩国，在那里
通过看美国电影学英语。在韩国她还睡了不少男人。然后她申请哈佛被拒。第二年她重新
申请了哈佛、普林斯顿，耶鲁和杜克大学。除了哈佛外其他的学校都同意录取她。因为她
搞定了Robertson,所以她选择了杜克大学。 后来她一脚把Robertson踢开，因为她不想被
项目束缚住。
After the story finished, we were all pretty amazed. We were all thinking that
this seemingly innocent Chinese student is destined for greatness. After we c
ome back to my room, she proceeds to tell one of us about the guy in the dorm
she had sex with. I was quite shocked by this. She seemed so innocent, and we
had only been at Duke for less than 5 days. She says the guy was a virgin and
now he wants a relationship. We go to the common room, she points him out, and
he was playing pool at the other side of the room, totally not paying attenti
on to her.
Later on, Grace begins telling us many stories about herself. All she ever tal
ks about is herself.
As the stories piled on, they became inconsistent, and sometimes directly cont
radicting. People begin question her trustworthiness. Eventually, after months
of lies and irrationality, people begin disliking her. For such a trusting an
d kind dorm like Brown to dislike someone, you really have to be special. And
Grace is that special. Now we know she is a liar. She didn't go to Korea or ev
en participate in anything political. She even told people that she wrote her
own recommendations for college applications. She made up stories to make hers
elf seem impressive for colleges, and now, the western media.
这个故事讲完后，我们都非常吃惊。我们都认为这个看起来很单纯的中国姑娘前途不可限
量。回到我房间后，她又接着告诉我们她和一个宿舍男生做爱的事。我可真是够吃惊的。
她看起来显得很单纯，我们刚到杜克的日子也就不到5天。她说那个和她作爱的家伙还是处
男，现在居然对她动了真感情了。 我们去公共休息室的时候，她还把他指出来给我看，那
个家伙正在房子那头打台球，根本没有理睬到她。
后来，王又开始给我们讲很多关于她的故事，事实上，所有她讲过的都是关于她自己的。
随着故事越讲越多，故事情节开始不连贯了，有时候还互相矛盾。同学们开始质疑她的可
信度。最后经过了数月的谎言和恼怒，同学们开始讨厌她。能让Brown这样一个值得信赖且
和善的室友讨厌，那可真是个极品才能做的到。王1000就是这个极品。现在当然我们都知
道了她是个骗子。她根本没有去过韩国甚至也没有参加过那样的政治团体。她甚至告诉同
学们她自己给自己写的大学推荐信。让她在显的很突出，她那时编造故事给大学，现在，
给西方媒体。
She's overloading by taking around 6 courses. 2-3 of those are foreign languag
e courses. She was angry that the academic dean wouldn't let her do more. Funn
y thing is, she's definitely not doing well in any of them. I've heard her pra
ctice her German, and it is atrocious.
她课程压力很大，选了6门课，2~3门是外语。教导主任不让她选更多的课程让王很不爽。
有趣的是，她选的每门课都学的不是很好。我曾经听过她练习德语，真是难以入耳。
She also reads like a maniac. I don't really know what she reads, but it's Chi
nese literature/philosophy and political theory. She prints hundreds of pages
a night to read, parades around with her stack of papers, telling anyone who w
ould listen, trying to impress another person of her political acumen.
She shaved off her eyebrows the other day. Because 1: all her boy problems wil
l go away, and 2: pretty girls never make history.
她还象发疯了一样的阅读。我真不知道她到底在读什么，应该是中国文学、哲学和政治理
论吧。她打印数百页资料阅读一晚上，带着厚厚的一堆纸乱转，见人就问谁愿意听她讲，
试着用她的“政治敏感”去打动别人。
She also makes up stories about how people ask to have sex with her or perform
sexual acts with her.
Is it me, or is she someone trying to convince herself that she's destined for
greatness?
她还编造关于人们如何要跟她上床或跟她玩性游戏的故事
到底是我，还是她自己催眠自己认为自己注定前途无限的呢？
It would really take a really long time to really describe all my Grace storie
s and I don't have time for it. But all I can say is, she has been lifted up b
y western media as a martyr in this battle for Tibet. And she's drinking in ev
ery moment of it, because finally, she is being seen as a hero.
What a silly, irrational girl.
要真正的描述所有我们的王小姐的故事可真得花很长时间，不过我可没有这么多时间浪费
。但我现在能说的是，在这场斗争中她已经被西方媒体当作牺牲品而骑虎难下。她现在正
在享受着每一刻呢，因为最终，她会被当个英雄来看的。
真是个失去理智的蠢妞。
Oh how could I forget to mention, she wants to be president of China.
哦，我差点忘了说了，她还想成为中国的总统呢。作者: seoyeon 时间: 2008-4-18 19:12
Wow. Just wow. While I have physics and a paper to write, I really need to get this out.
Grace Wang. She's really something.
She's quite useful to the media. Both sides are having a field day. The chinese TV are branding her as this terrible traitor while western media is holding her up as the lone voice of reason. They both are neglecting the truth, what Grace really is, beyond the 9 minute Youtube video and glorious interviews.
When I first met her at a dinner, she immediately spilled her life story. I thought, maybe she was being a slightly socially incompetent fob and trying to make friends. I listened. What a good story it was.
She told of how she was involved in a political group with some top lawyers in China. They were trying to get the truth out of the Tiananmen square incident. They wrote articles and blogs together on the subject. Then one day, one of her friends involved in the group disappeared. They called her, went to her house, tried everything, but she was no where to be found. Then Grace and her parents start freaking out. Grace's dad, at the time the ex mayor of Qingdao, afraid of Grace facing a similar fate, went to her files in the city government and threw them out. She got a new name, and quickly moved to South Korea. At the time, Grace told us that she already dropped out of her high school in Qingdao because she was unsatisfied by the best high school in Shandong province. She moved to Korea, and there she learned English by watching American films. While she was there, she also slept around with a lot of guys. Then she applied to Harvard and got rejected. The next year, she applies again, to Harvard, Princeton, Yale, and Duke. She gets accepted to all but Harvard. She chose to come to Duke because she got the Robertson. She then turns down the Robertson because she didn't want the restrictions set by the program.
After the story finished, we were all pretty amazed. We were all thinking that this seemingly innocent Chinese student is destined for greatness. After we come back to my room, she proceeds to tell one of us about the guy in the dorm she had sex with. I was quite shocked by this. She seemed so innocent, and we had only been at Duke for less than 5 days. She says the guy was a virgin and now he wants a relationship. We go to the common room, she points him out, and he was playing pool at the other side of the room, totally not paying attention to her.
Later on, Grace begins telling us many stories about herself. All she ever talks about is herself.
As the stories piled on, they became inconsistent, and sometimes directly contradicting. People begin question her trustworthiness. Eventually, after months of lies and irrationality, people begin disliking her. For such a trusting and kind dorm like Brown to dislike someone, you really have to be special. And Grace is that special. Now we know she is a liar. She didn't go to Korea or even participate in anything political. She even told people that she wrote her own recommendations for college applications. She made up stories to make herself seem impressive for colleges, and now, the western media.
She's overloading by taking around 6 courses. 2-3 of those are foreign language courses. She was angry that the academic dean wouldn't let her do more. Funny thing is, she's definitely not doing well in any of them. I've heard her practice her German, and it is atrocious.
She also reads like a maniac. I don't really know what she reads, but it's Chinese literature/philosophy and political theory. She prints hundreds of pages a night to read, parades around with her stack of papers, telling anyone who would listen, trying to impress another person of her political acumen.
She shaved off her eyebrows the other day. Because 1: all her boy problems will go away, and 2: pretty girls never make history.
She also makes up stories about how people ask to have sex with her or perform sexual acts with her.
Is it me, or is she someone trying to convince herself that she's destined for greatness?
It would really take a really long time to really describe all my Grace stories and I don't have time for it. But all I can say is, she has been lifted up by western media as a martyr in this battle for Tibet. And she's drinking in every moment of it, because finally, she is being seen as a hero.
What a silly, irrational girl.
Oh how could I forget to mention, she wants to be president of China.
I'm Grace Wang from second floor. I think I've at least talked to everyone here. If not, I'll pay a kind visit to you as soon as possible. I've experienced some serious issues in our dorm recently that almost made me move out. Actually I've already submitted my reaccommodating application and decided to leave by next Friday. But after days of serious consideration, I decided to stay because I believe the best way to solve the problem is not to quit but to confront it. I'm writing this email to you because I think this is an issue considering every one of us.
The problems are distrust and gossip. Of course, not all Brownies gossip. But a lot do. Brown is a very close community, which facilitates communication of all kinds and, of course, a curiosity of our neighbors' interesting lives. Not only do many of us nose into others' privacy, but also do we share our amazing discoveries. I've heard some very unkind sayings from young gentlemen gossiping about their roommates, or ladies meanly mentioning their neighbors, even from people I trusted and respected so much. Many, if not all, of the stories were simply fabrication but like snowballs they grew bigger and bigger. None of us is perfect but that is not an excuse for us to hurt others. Treat others as how we want to be treated and insulting others is humiliating ourselves. I became a target probably because I acted up against it. Recently I was openly insulted by more than ten people who barely talked to me anywhere but Marketplace about several different issues in public. When I responded to those rummors, I was laughed at by many other watchers who seemed to be so nice otherwise. I was forced to answer questions that should not be asked by any rational being in public. (When he asked me these questions the gentlemen was wearing a contented smile.) I was chased by a gentleman who had insulted me many times and he even cornered me to forgive him without trying to appologize after all he did. Suddenly, after all these happened, everyone went back to their small niche and became a saint again. From their smile I saw insecurity; from their pretension I saw hollowness; in their eyes I saw fear. Majority is no guarantee to be correct. Up till now I haven't received any apology from any single person. All I got is denial and denial and denial. Dumb as I am, I still got the message. All they meant is just "it was not my fault," "it was only a joke," and "I didn't say anything." This is how responsible and brave they are. I was so frustrated. I almost packed up everything and then I unpacked again. I unpacked and decided to stay because I know I'm not alone. If they can gossip about me then they can gossip about everyone. Or maybe they even gossip about each other. Only by blaming others would they find their own security and peace.
I have already forgiven everyone and forgotten every insulting word. But my principles are inviolable. I don't mind if some people would continue gossiping about me after I wrote this letter. What I want to tell them is that I will defend everybody's privacy to be protected and reputation to be preserved. I will fight for this public disease to death. If anyone want to talk with me about this, my room is 226.
My last words here are that we should cherish the opportunity to have everyone here. Instead of hurting each other or saying a superficial hi, there're much more meaningful things to do with each other. Together, we should protect each other, help each other, and love each other.
Peace,
Grace
I felt the egotistical girl needed a reality check that she won't accept.
Hi Grace,
I don't really know how I am considered by you, but I feel that you are a great person and have lots of potential. You should know that Brownies are not malicious beings who gossip to hurt you. You should try to see that they are trying to help you.
The distrust is there because you tell us many different versions of your life. You are the propagator of all these rumors. Like this email, your stories get told by mostly you. You do realize that mountains of rumors will now spread because you have brought yourself to the attention of others and now you will be discussed? You might feel that people are insulting you by their disbelief, but I think you are the one insulting yourself with your false stories. You first told me that you are from Qingdao and that you are here due to political persecution. I have heard different versions where you organized an international conference and it flopped, thus you are here. People are not dumb, we piece together your inaccurate stories. I will not guess at the reason why you make up many different versions of your life, but perhaps you are doing this to impress us? Please do not feel a need to impress everyone you meet, spill your lifestory to everyone you meet. There is distrust because you created it. Not only do you make up lies about yourself, you openly tell stories about others. Perhaps they are true, but because of our previous experiences with you, we do not how to view this. If you did fabricate these events that have taken place, you have hurt them way more than anyone has hurt you because you are actively harming others. But perhaps you did not make anything up and we are just very bad at piecing together your lifestory (we do so because it definitely is interesting, from what you have told us), so we could take all those stories as truth with a grain of salt.
Also to let you know, you are infamous on west and infamous within the Chinese circle at Duke. Had you escaped Brown, you would have been confronted with a world of people who arent so patient with your lies.
Curiosity is only natural, from what I hear, you are also very curious about political science. Curiosity means no harm. If I were you, I would be grateful that no pranks have befallen you.
Like any person with self respect, you have a sense of pride. I respect that, yet it is wise now, and definitely in the future if you wish to persue a successful political career, to be humble. Try to understand others, look at yourself for perhaps the blame lies there.
I do this not to hurt you, but to ease your current social situation on campus.
Please try to be open minded about things.
Siyu
So that was straightforward, hopefully killed her ego a bit. But I wasn't too hopeful. I think mostly I just needed to say it all to her. Just once. So she decides to email the whole dorm back with a response to my email and unsuccessfully erasing my name.
I admire your courage to reply in such a candide way. When I wrote the letter to everyone, I never thought about you so I was surprised by what you said about Chinese community. You have made a very fast judgment on me and also an unfair generalization about Chinese community. As far as I can see, you like to make fun of Chinese people and see yourself superior than Chinese (maybe only those who are more Chinese than you are?) Candidate, I have faith in Chinese community here and everywhere. I also believe that people have the ability to tell right from wrong. Apparently some people have eagerly spread the rumor to as many people as possible. I can tell you that all of the stories you heard from me are true. I am also very happy to see how much interest you showed to my and others' life. If you want to know something about my personal life as you have shown apparent interest, I can tell you very candidly whatever is appropriate to tell. I am from Qingdao, which is a fact that I have never ever hide. I have also organized an important political protest in Beijing. The political science professor Tianjian Shi at Duke and a Chinese student (Class 11 from Beijing) called Ruochen Zhu can attest what I've said. I can also tell you that that protest had something to do with Duke university political science department and I communicated with president Brodhead and got replies from the then political science departement acting chair Michael A Gillespie and Vice Provost for International Affairs Gilbert Merkx.
If I feel a little intimidated, I wouldn't even try to write this email or to stay here. I told the story because my past shows who I am today and I am still bothered by a lot of the experiences. I also want people to be aware of the political status quo in China and feel a need to care. I have been through a lot more than you can ever imagine and it is not easy to handle by myself. You don't need to worry about how do I or others think about you. It is what you think of you and what you do that matters. I have said I have chosen to forget about everything everyone did. I hope this is the end of your game.
Best,
Grace
I can only shake my head at this response.
After Justin the GR slightly reprimanded Grace for mass emailing everyone, she sent back an apology.
Hi Siyu,
This email is confidential.
It was a very long day for me. I am sorry for accidently exposed your email. I deleted your name in both my replied email and your email. I clearly forgot that besides email context people could also find your name on the top of the email. I'm very sorry for this mistake. Please accept my sincere apologize. I can clarify this if you want me to. I think there are some misunderstandings between us but I believe we can dissolve these misunderstandings together. I believe the biggest things in the world are people's hearts. They are stronger and broader than we would ever imagine. They can sense where we cannot see and even what we dare not imagine. You said you wanted to help me, even though I hope it was done in a more sublime way but I read your email again and again and found that you raised some really interesting perspectives and I have learned a lot from you. I'm thankful to all the experiences that you have helped me to learn. I'm not saying that I think you did a justifiable thing but I admire your courage and sincerety. I also think that you are a very smart girl even though sometimes you tend to be a little mean. I've never thought you would say anything indeed. All I thought beforehand was just to tell people to stop hiding behind the tyranny of the majority and gossiping is not cool. I didn't even want to know who did what to whom because of what. I don't forgive the deeds but who don't make youthful mistakes? So I forgave everyone, and of course including you. I still can remember every detail of happy moment with you that I cherish so much and would love continue enjoy later on: cooking and eating with you, Ashton and Feng and watching you playing the violin. You said I should be more open minded because the blame might lie there. I think instead of seeing everyone as someone we might blame on, we should see what great things they have done and what can we learn from them. Amia can play beautiful piano and you didn't even pay attention to her talents. You don't understand what I've done because you can't imagine that I could be a great political influential at the age of 18. But life starts from belief and in order to believe we need to first forget about disbelief. What do you think? I hope we can sit down and talk things out. Looking forward to talking with you.
Best,
Grace
It's funny to see people's responses to this. Amia wants it to stop, several others have found it very amusing, and Elizabeth seems to take it very seriously and even wants to talk to me about it because Grace came to her, crying, asking her to talk to me. I don't really know what she's going to say, and I really don't care. I've already talked to Grace. Nothing substantial was said. I shall just say hi to her with a smile, knowing she hates it.作者: adler1982 时间: 2008-4-19 10:58
